Friday, July 22, 2011


Why is it I let things stress me out so much??
I finally get to see my little Bro man today!!  Ahhhh I have missed him sooooo much!!
Don't look at the mess in my car- I'm gonna blame that on "I've been trying to get consignment stuff together" wink wink..... Even though my car is a mess almost ALWAYS!! (Notice the upside down sippy in between his legs, lol)
Why is it every time I clean my car completely, I always say, "I'm gonna keep it clean this time" and within a couple days it is already a wreck again!!
Being a single parent is an overall stressful situation in itself!
Living paycheck to paycheck is an even more stressful situation... That's why I am turning to the Dave Ramsey plan

I am so tired of worrying about whether I will overdraft before my next check comes in!

I never used to worry about money- I would spend and spend and spend and I would still have money- That was before I started x-ray school- I worked at Sonic and I didn't have as much to pay for then. I have ALOT more things to pay for now- School loans, car loan, house, utilities, daycare, food, gas, insurance, & the list goes on and on and on.....  I know I ain't the only one out there that barely lives paycheck to paycheck.... and overdraft every now and then when you HAVE to... So instead of being stressed out all the time about $$, I am turning to the Dave Ramsey plan... I think I am a very cheap person, if I go somewhere I ALWAYS look for coupons!! Yes I do have a smart phone and pay a little extra for that, but I use it a lot when I am at places- I 
coupons and hand it to the person and be like "here is a 30% off" OHHH YA- Just saved $3 for every $10- so ya I think my 
is worth the money- I really don't know what I would do without it........

So enough about money- It is making me stressed just talking about it lol.......
Trying to lose weight stresses me out as well....... You know it's bad when you can't resist the temptation- It is very sad to say but food is an addiction!!!  It is very hard for me to be in the same room with bad food- For instance, Tony text me wanting some 

....... I was like "please don't make me get em because I know as soon as I get in the car I am gonna have to eat at least 1" Needless to say the oreos were on sale and I opened the package before I could leave Kroger and the 1 turned to 6 before I could even get to the house... Just talking about em right now makes me hungry!! That is horrible...  Oh ya btw, I got the regular stuffed instead of double- wanna know why- because u get more cookies in the package- lol...... 
Brody eats the icing off oreos and gives me the rest of the cookie, just like he eats the icing off cupcakes and gives me the cupcake... or as he calls cupcakes (birthday cakes) lol

Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend =) 



Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Wow it has been a while

Well when i 1st started this whole blog thing I thought it was gonna be a pretty regular thing for me- Once a week or what not...... Well I been slacking a little :( My bad..... I think I enjoy reading other people blogs more than I like typing my own.... Well obviously.... 
Brody is getting so big- He is getting so smart- He is talking more and more every day... He has been with his dad since last friday and I don't get him back until this coming friday at 6pm... I cant even begin to start to tell you how much I have missed that little boy... I feel like it has been a whole month!! 
I know it's bad that I started letting Brody sleep with me again- but I feel like that is our quality time now... When he is ready for bed he will grab his sippy, a couple little 4wheelers, dirt bikes or a tractor and his blankie and say "you ready to go to bed" and starts walking to my room and points to my bed...   :( I cant say no- I know most people say "you HAVE got to put him in his OWN bed"... 
I know it is gonna be really hard for him to start sleeping in his own bed again but I just wanna snuggle with the little guy while I have the opportunity- I just feel like I don't really get to spend much quality time with him and that is "our" time... Ya I guess I cant complain, at least I get him basically every other weekend now, right?? 
Before we settled our whole deal in mediation I got to spend about 22 hours of awake time with my son... Now that I look back at the whole ordeal it makes me sick.. I lost about a year of my sons life bc someone wanted to be selfish and feel like they didn't get to spend enough time with their son-Might I add, HE was getting to spend about 36 hours of awake time with him!! 
So now that we are settled in mediation, on my weeks where I get him on the weekend- I get to spend about 40 hrs with him and on the weeks where his dad gets him on the weekends I get about 16..... And I would also like to add that I still haven't received a penny of child support- Those of you who know me personally know that I filled for this whole ordeal 15 months ago... I have never seen anything like it!! 
But besides the point, I am very thankful that I have my son in my life, he has for sure changed my life!!
I didn't plan to get pregnant or for me and Brody's dad to seperate... Things happen for a reason... And for that reason we may never know... All I want is for everyone to be happy and for everyone to be happy for everyone... But since Tyler (brody's dad) is going to have to pay me child support he will always hate me... I don't want to be best friends or anything but I would like to not have to feel like there is always a fight to be fought... We weren't happy together so why can't we be happy apart?? Atleast get along for Brody's sake???
That's all for now, hopefully I can get on here a little sooner next time... So I will leave yall with this cute little white butt for now-
Yes I know he is only 2 but he has already starting playing baseball- Hopefully he will play in the major leagues ;)